HI babes, have you been watching and laughing? we filled the year with fun, carrying out your wishes and aspirations, we even did stuff you didn't suggest and the kids giggled as we talked what your reaction would be! I swam Windermere again, it was very choppy. I also did Manchester which I will do again and Conniston - I saw you every breath I took alongside me, pushing me on throught the 5.25 miles, thank you. Cam sat his first GCSE's so close after loosing you but we needn't have worried and we laughed at how smart you would have told him he is. We found a nice lake to sail and Jordanha is doing well on the topper, and I have had to put Red Rascal back together so they all have a boat this summer. There was one amazing day last summer when Cam was on his new lazer and teaching Eran to follow a course in the topper, we me & J kayaking behind, you would have been overcome with pride, and yes, I now have my balcony overlooking the lake to sit and think of you and cherished times. Eran went to Spain on his school trip, he was so brave leaving us so soon after you and I was nervous for him but turned out he had a great time. Then J went to Oaklands and Cam went to Berlin. We gave Jordanha her first flying experience when we did the family holiday abroad you so wanted us to take, she loved it. The kids birthdays came and I gave them your cards, we all cried each time. Then we remembered your birthday and lit 33 candles on the patio and danced in the rain. We have taken your first steps on the property rentals ladder for you and are getting property 1 ready, J paints and Cam shares my passion for demolishion, Eran is more concerned whether it will get WI FI! We said goodbye to Snuggels, then Bugsey too this year and filled the void with Izzy, The Great Dane, she's a softy and I am sure you walk her with me in the woods. So babes, we did it as we said we would, you needed have worried we followed your lead, we stayed positive and with the help of your friends, we filled the year with laughter and love, and cuddles when we were sad. I know you are proud of all of us and we will talk of you often and keep you alive in our hearts as walk the paths of life you envisaged us taking, love you always x